Five Months

If Brady was still alive, today would have been our five month wedding anniversary.

Days like today creep up on the grieving. It’s not a obvious pain like Christmas or a Birthday, but a day like today would be so different if Brady was here. We would have been celebrating five months of marriage, toasting to our love over dinner or reminiscing about our wedding while cuddling under our favorite fuzzy blanket.

The day of our wedding, July 20th, was a dream come true. We woke up that morning, put on our beautiful white and navy outfits, and decided that living a life together was better than a life alone. We vowed our lives to each other, promising to love the other no matter the circumstance (I think we nailed it).

For our one month wedding anniversary, Brady and I searched for a decent Chinese or Japanese restaurant near our home in Grove City, PA. We found a highly rated hibachi styled restaurant in Butler, so we dined there. We stopped at Rita’s to grab Italian Ice afterwards, and we watched some Netflix once we got back home.

To celebrate two months of marriage, Brady and I went on a camping trip to Prince Gallitzin State Park! On Friday, the 20th, of that September weekend, we grabbed some dinner at a local diner and stopped at three places for ice cream afterwards (the first two were closed).

On October 20th, Brady and I decided that we would paint a picture together to celebrate our marriage! So, we went to Michaels to get some painting supplies, and we also had dinner at Texas Roadhouse that night. The painting didn’t get finished until days afterward, but it turned out to be a beautiful sunset.

On our fourth, and last, monthly celebration, Brady was quite sick and immobile. Brady slept for most of the day, and I spent most of the evening rubbing his side so his ribs would feel better. It wasn’t nearly as glamorous of a day as some of our prior anniversaries, but we were together, and I was still so grateful.

Brady died five days after that, on November 25th. Today is the 20th of the month again, but he’s not here to celebrate with me.

I am so incredibly thankful for the time I had with Brady, especially the four months we spent together as a married couple. But, gosh…I wish I had more months.

Photo: Anna Laero Photography

5 Replies to “Five Months”

  1. Alison Huffman says:

    Molly,
    I’ve been following your blog since I saw your mom’s post about it on Facebook last week. I really enjoy reading about your story and your journey with Brady! I can’t at all imagine what you’re going through right now, but the strength that God has given you to walk through this is incomprehensible. I want to encourage you as you continue your journey through this difficult time with one of my favorite Bible verses: “For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.” – Romans‬ ‭8:18‬

    Your current situation is not your final destination; things WILL get better because God is going to get you through this! He loves you beyond anything you could ever imagine, and He will never leave your side. Praying for you!

  2. Luann Schaefer says:

    What a gifted writer you are! Praying for you as you continue to share your story of Gods amazing grace and unlimited power throughout your journey.

  3. Hi, I’m from Poland and I can’t speak English so I write with a translator.
    I accidentally came across a post about your wedding and found out what happened to your husband. I am very sorry about that, especially since I too may die of cancer soon, but I have never met true love in my life. Maybe it’s better, my loved ones and friends will have to deal with it anyway and I feel very bad about it. It’s possible that I meet Brady on the other side, I just need to improve my English. Best wishes, Merry Christmas!

  4. Donetta Curry says:

    I don’t know you personally but you seem to be such a beautiful person inside and out. I’m enjoying your blog. Please continue to write and share memories. What you had with Brady in a few short months of marriage is more than most have in a lifetime . Hugs and prayers to you sweet girl ♥️

  5. We followed Brady’s progress on his power play FB page praying for him daily. As we followed we got to know just a glimpse of his life and your life as well. Brady’s faith was incredible and yours also. To watch you walk together through this was and is a beautiful testimony of love, grace, faith and determination. We are so thankful for being able to pray for you both. To have opportunity to witness such a wonderful love with Christ at the center. Many of us older folks can learn a thing or two from you both. We had prayed you and Brady would have many many years together. Our hearts hurt that such an amazing love had to endure so much. We are incredibly thankful for all the years you had and that you found each other early on and that you can reflect on so many wonderful happy moments. Brady lived a very full life and you sharing with us the special moments like your anniversaries are so wonderful thank you for letting us be a part of your journey. We pray God’s blessing over you, we know he will use your journey and you to reach so many in need, just as he used Brady and his journey to reach so many.

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